And so that's been, like, sort of, like, a revelation, or it's been, like it was just a really surreal experience, and and it was super real. And I sort of just like let that be you know and my mom has had experiences similar to that and weeks go by excuse me weeks go by and I continue to grieve, and I had gone out with a buddy of mine that I hadn't seen in a couple years. I had known this this guy since I was 5 years old. We've been best friends for a long time, but we hadn't spoken to each other in 2 years. He didn't know about my dad. He only recently found out about everything, and and so he he wanted to meet up. I was super down for that. We had a great night. We had a drunken night. We went out to the bars in Arizona.